Saturday, May 21, 2016

May 20, 2016

So I had a scary evening yesterday...
Jay, the girls, and I all went out to eat together. When I was almost done eating I got hit with a super strong contraction/lower abdominal cramping (felt like I needed to poop).

I excused myself from the table to go use the restroom, getting quite dizzy on my first 10 steps away from the table, but regaining full stamina almost immediately.

I went to the restroom and peed. I still felt the need to poop, but it didn't happen. I remember feeling sweaty all of a sudden and looked down at my insulin pump screen to see if my glucose was suddenly dropping.

I then had a short dream, and came to (after losing consciousness) with my head stuck in the corner of the bathroom walls, but still seated on the toilet.

I realized immediately that I had passed out. I was in a full body sweat at this point (no low blood sugar, by the way).

I re-gained my bearings, washed my hands, and went out of the bathroom (both Autumn and Tori were outside the door waiting to use it, in line behind another young girl).

I walked back to the table with both girls. Once I sat down I told Jay what had happened and that I needed him to take the girls to the restroom while I sat and regained my composure.

Almost instantly after he and the girls left from the table I got hit with another intense contraction and laid down on the bench to help reduce the pain.

The next think I knew/heard was my cute little Asian waitress saying "Are you OK? Are you OK?"

I responded, and slowly sat back up. I told her I had just passed out and that my husband/kids were in the bathroom, I was 28 weeks pregnant, and needed to go to the hospital.

She immediately alerted the staff, informed Jay, and had another gentleman employee (ironically named Charlie) assist her and Jay walk me out to the car.

I called emergency L&D on the way to the hospital to inform them we were coming, etc.

Once at the hospital I did not pass out again. They checked my cervix, did a swab for risk of pre-term labor, a CMP (complete metabolic panel), and urine analysis.

I also threw up there and had diarrhea.

My contractions were every 2-3 minutes upon arrival.

However, after a full bag of fluids, a Zofran (anti-nausea) bolus, and resting for a little over 3 hours the contractions almost completely stopped.

Charlie's heart rate/movement was/is normal. She wasn't stressing at all.

They released me at about 12:45am this morning.

I've been taking it very easy today, and drinking lots of water. But this virus I'm fighting, the GI (gastroenteritis) bug, and dehydration are probably the main cause of last night's scare.

I will not be doing the flea market garage sale tomorrow (Idaho's Largest Garage Sale) and will do my best to keep my activities to a bare minimum to allow myself the rest my body so desperately needs to heal.

I just figured I'd let you all know what's happening in my world... crazy scary stuff.

Thursday, November 26, 2015

What I did today

Today I...

(Went to a chiropractor appointment.
Got my watch fixed.
Bought Autumn 9 dresses at Deseret Industries.
Dropped off my cousin at the airport.
Cooked macaroni and cheese.
Cooked pasta salad.
Ate pasta salad.
Made 47 peanut butter/chocolate truffles.

Made 8 "shaped" chocolates.
.
Washed dishes.
Gel painted my neighbor's and Autumn's nails.
Went grocery shopping.
Prepped and started roasting a turkey.

Formatted/edited family photos and printed them out to begin tomorrow's activity of assembling the home-made gifts they will be put into.)

had a busy day.

Saturday, November 21, 2015

Once-a-year-blogging

I was looking back on my list of blog titles that I've published and realized that the last time I actually published a blog post was on the 15th of last December.

Yikes.

So... perhaps I should summarize this year. Here goes...

January:
I don't have anything saved on my calendar that I did during this month so... on to:

February:
I drove home to Colorado for my friend Michelle Keller's funeral. It sucked.
A lot of re-surfaced memories greeted me as I arrived at the church for her funeral on the morning of. This was the same location of her little brother's funeral 9 years earlier. A lot of the same people attended also. Mixed bag of emotions. But there is no way I would have not attended. I was there for Michelle, more than anyone else.
Of course I was there for her family (parents and little sister) also. But primarily I was there for Michelle. She and I shared a connection post Ryan's death that nobody else shared with her. We spent a handful of times together in college in deep conversation about life, God, etc. And these moments will forever be only mine and hers. Private conversations that I think only she and I could understand.

The only other thing I remember from February was that I actually bought some Valentine's cards for my kiddos to have/use/give away, but forgot where I put them, and thus, they were not delivered to anybody. Oops.

March:
The 4th hit me harder this year due to Michelle's funeral. I didn't call my family to share in the Noah's Arc joke due to my depression truly isolating me from the world. I hated that day.

April:
Got diagnosed as being a BRCA1 gene mutation carrier.
I forgot it was my oldest sister's birthday on the 16th. My other sister reminded me (thankfully) so I did get the chance to call her. But yeah... totally spaced that one. Still in depression head fog. Nothing outside of my own universe was truly noted/acknowledged by me.

May:
I called my little brother on his birthday and chatted for a half hour or so.
Mother's day was kind of a drag (I hinted at what I wanted by reading a book about mother's day to the girls & Jay a few days in advance... but it didn't lead to anything truly).
My birthday was ok. We went out to dinner at Red Lobster. But it didn't feel like a celebration.

June:
I forgot my anniversary because I was super distracted by having Jury duty on the first week of the month.
I also baked/decorated/served a wedding cake that weekend. They ordered custom made legos to represent all their family members atop the cake (including their two dogs and cat).

With both of those priorities encompassing my brain I literally forgot.
Jay got me a 1/2 spa day package and some roses. I was surprised to realize that it was, in fact, our anniversary and I had forgotten it.
Ward picnic.
Lydia & Naomi Hellewell's birthday party.
My daddy's birthday.
Jay's/McConkie family's reunion/Father's day. Lots of fun activities with this side of the family. Met a lot of new people and truly enjoyed how warm they all are as a family.
Went and saw "Inside Out" in theaters. It was pretty good.
Hosted a Pampered Chef party at my house. It was busy, but fun.

July:
Started seeing a psychiatrist for my depression/medication.
Autumn's "princess" birthday party. I dressed up as Elsa from Frozen. I also made her two different birthday cakes.


We also hired a magician/balloon man for her party. It was pretty cool.
I worked a shift at the Boise cannery (pears).
Autumn had her annual doctor's appointment.

August:
Camping trip with my family in Colorado. Lots of anxiety about traveling alone with my kiddos (roughest trip yet). It ended on a positive note even though the start to it was very rough on me.
Classroom visit and parent orientation at Autumn's preschool.
Autumn really liked the look/feel of her school.
I felt completely overwhelmed with all of the new information.
It's a cooperative preschool - so there's a lot of parent involvement, so it's forced me to come out of my comfort shell quite a bit, which truly has been a big help out of my depression mode.

September:
My mommy's birthday.
Another cannery assignment (peaches).
Preschool started. (I cried like a baby when dropping Autumn off).
Started EMDR psychotherapy.
https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Eye_movement_desensitization_and_reprocessing
Stake international night.
Preschool field trip "soccer tots."
1/2 day spa package.

October:
Attended a Tupperware party.
Preschool field trip to Linder Farms.
Autumn was moved into an older class at preschool and now attends 3 days a week instead of 2.
Went and saw the Pollocks in Heyburn and celebrated an early birthday for Tori there with a Minion cake.

She got a Wonder Woman costume from them that she absolutely loves!

My minivan was rear-ended/totaled by a school bus.

I only have slight whiplash from the crash. Tori was in the car also - but is 100% ok.
Kaylie Cleverley (my 3rd cousin, twice removed) received her endowments and I attended. :)

Preschool harvest party. On Tori's actual birthday (she keeps telling everyone that she had a birthday at preschool).

Tori's birthday party with friends. Complete with Minion cake #2. It was completely minion themed.

I had a low blood sugar that required Jay injecting me with glucagon (first time ever required in my life). It was not pretty - I bit my tongue pretty bad. From Autumn/Tori's description I must have had a seizure.

Halloween! We were cops & robbers!

And last but not least, many, many trips to the chiropractor post this car crash.

November:
Purchased a "new" (to us) minivan. No pictures taken of it yet, ironically.
Preschool field trip to Boise Rock School.
Stake pie social. My sister's recipe that I prepared for black bottom banana creme pie won in the "cream pie" category.
Jay's birthday.

And still more to come like....
Stake conference.
Oncologist appointment (because I'm a carrier for BRCA1 gene mutation I am being monitored by a breast oncologist every 6 months to ensure that if I develop cancer we catch it super quick giving me more treatment options and a better prognosis).
Thanksgiving.

December:
Trip home to Colorado.
Christmas!

So yeah, that's it for me as for now.
Let me know if you want any fill-ins, or details about anything mentioned above (or that you're aware I left out).

Monday, December 15, 2014

It's beginning to look a lot like Christmas!

Wow... I haven't written on my blog since May!

The Memorial Day garage sale was a huge success. I got rid of 3/4 of all our storage boxes in the garage through the sale, and by donating the rest.

I now have a shelf/bench out in my garage that my cousin Jeff so graciously gave to me. It's not fancy, but it's highly functional.
I also put together the girls' old diaper changing table as "craft central" for all the supplies/projects I have/do. I placed it on my rolling extendable coat rack so that I can hang things above it also (tie-dye t-shirts, other things that need to dry).
Now I just have to get rid of a couple more items in the garage that didn't sell and I've put on craigslist so that I can put "craft central" over on the end of my shelf/bench allowing for room for an additional refrigerator or chest freezer.
I'm also going to install a couple bike hooks so that I can hang my bike instead of having it take up floor space.
With that I'll also install a couple hanging 2x4s to create a place to put the plastic kiddie pool so that it's not out in the elements and not in the way of the car.
And perhaps, just to finish things off, I'll find a space out on the bench to organize my tools when I'm done with those installations so that they're no longer haphazardly placed in my linen closet.

After that I just need to tackle my bedroom, bedroom closet, coat closet, and Entertainment Center.

Bedroom closet:
I need to organize Jay and I's clothes back into the dresser (they've migrated to sitting on top - so everything in the drawers now is pretty much never worn and can be sold/consigned/given away).
Bedroom:
Organize the book shelf to actually contain books (eliminating probably another box in the garage). Unpack the boxes stacked next to our TV stand (yes, there is one in our bedroom even though we never watch anything in there - ever). Organize the night stand. Store the baby items that are still haphazardly around the night stand. Examine the contents under our bed and decide how best to organize them or if any can be given away/sold/re-purposed. Get another book shelf on my side of the bed and fill it (eliminating another box or two in the garage).Decide if I want to re-position the layout of the bedroom.
Coat closet:
Unpack/organize/repack the boxes stored in there and move them to the garage. Design a shelving/storage system on the floor for the kids' toys to be stored away when not in use (their play room is the living room - I would like to reclaim the parts of it used to store their toys). Organize board games on top closet shelf - they're currently topped on the book shelf in the living room, but there's no more room up there and there are still several in a few boxes in the garage.
Entertainment Center:
Find a better shelving method for our DVDs (maybe building shelves above the DVD player and/or re-purposing the firewood storage den in our living room (currently containing DVDs, random cables, and who knows what else). Alphabetizing the DVDs and taking inventory on a spreadsheet so we know what we have. Mounting the digital antenna to the wall so that it's not resting on top of the flat-screen.

However, the next few days are dedicated to Christmas prep.

I need to:
Bake/decorate a cake (for a client).
Bake/decorate cookies (for this client's colleagues).
Do the weekly laundry.
Complete the home-made crafts for the Christopherson family nieces/nephew.
Paint and assemble my mother in-laws gift.
Ship those gifts.
Purchase some gifts for my mother, father and husband.
Assemble the rocking horse we got for the girls.
Wrap presents.
Feed the missionaries on Wednesday (Bata yaki - be jealous other Hellewells).
Go to the Borah High School Christmas choir concert on Thursday night.
Find weighted stocking holders/hooks for our fireplace mantle.
Paint mine and my neighbor's windows with some holiday motifs.
Decide on what "treat" to leave in the mailbox for our mailman as a Christmas present.
And... I can't think of anything else.

Thankfully the tree is already assembled and decorated and our lights are "up." The lights I put "up" outside are simple this year (solar powered luminaries lining the driveway - the posts looking like peppermint sticks).

We're staying in Idaho for Christmas this year (our first Christmas together as an immediate family since becoming parents). Jay has to work on Christmas day... but we'll figure something out to make it special - perhaps joining him for luch at work.

Maybe we'll get a chance to Skype with our family members in California/Colorado/Texas on Christmas eve - and make that a new tradition.

I hope your Christmas is Merry and Bright!

2015 will be here in 16 days, 17 hours, 18 minutes, and 19 seconds! (it is now 12/15/2014 @ 7:42:41)

Monday, May 5, 2014

It's time to clean up!

I am a pack rat.

Not in the extreme sense like you see on "hoarders" or similar TV shows. But I've always had a hard time letting go of things or just plain throwing things away.

I remember as a kid that I purposefully memorized the pick-up schedule for the ARC donation truck so that I would "book it" home and ensure my precious "things" didn't get given away. Things like stuffed animals, clothes, toys, etc.
I've always had a hard time letting things go.

However... I'm not at the point in my life that I realize I have too much stuff.
I have boxes that I have not opened in over 2 years (since we moved here from Salt Lake City).
Ones that I truly don't know why I'm holding onto them considering I don't even use or look at their contents, ever.

So... here's what I'm doing to clean up.

I heard about "Idaho's Biggest Garage Sale" while listening to a radio station in April.
The idea intrigued me.

An outdoor flea market/garage sale.
All the advertising for it already exists - you just have to buy a space and set up your stuff.
Brilliant!!

So now for the fun part - I'm currently de-cluttering my house, closets, and yes, my garage.

I'm going through every single box. Literally.

I'm categorizing the items I'm not keeping into other small boxes by price ($1, $2, $5, $10, $15, $20, etc), and even including "free items" or "name your price."
On Friday, May 16th I will be going to set up my booth space (it cost $30 to reserve) with all of these things - they will be watched overnight by police/security to prevent theft; and will be there all day Saturday, the 17th, selling them off.
What I can't sell there (and honestly think I can't make a buck off of) will be donated to the local DI, Idaho Youth Ranch, or Goodwill.
Everything else will find itself listed on Craigslist.

It's time to clean up!

I'm not moving all this stuff again when we get out of this duplex.
I'm not moving this stuff ever again.

Find me at the garage sale!

http://idahoslargestgaragesale.com/idahos-largest-garage-sale-directions/

Friday, October 18, 2013

Life updates

Technically this is partially a new year's resolution update, but there's more than that topic that I want to blog about so... here goes.

I'm loosing weight.
It's kind of odd - I never have needed to loose weight, but being in the "overweight" category due to my BMI I felt the need to shed some pounds. That's why weight loss was one of my resolutions this year.

I'm now 155lbs.
My BMI is 23.6

I have lost 26 pounds since the beginning of this year (well, since February 22nd when I originally posted the resolution blog).

So, that means I met my weight loss resolution. Cool!

I would ideally like to weigh 130lbs as I've already admitted in that previous blog - so that means I have another 25 pounds to go.

Ironically enough, I haven't done anything really different to encourage this weight loss. It's been gradual, and I haven't even really focused on it throughout this year. I have noticed, however, that my meal portions have gone down considerably. I chalk up my weight loss to this fact alone. Eat less consistently and your stomach shrinks down a bit. You become accustomed to eating smaller meals.
If you want to do this too - just cut out a scoop of what you would normally put on your plate and/or replace that typical scoop with a vegetable/raw fruit instead. I've also concentrated on ensuring I'm eating whole-grain driven foods like 100% whole wheat bread, etc. Nothing drastic.


So what else is going on in my world?! A lot!

I volunteered some information to my High School graduating classes president about some ideas I had for our upcoming 10-year reunion this upcoming summer. After a few conversations with her she asked me if I would be the chairperson for the reunion committee. I heartily accepted!

So, because of that, I've been looking up information, pitching reunion ideas, and gathering contact information (as well as trying to get into contact with) for the 443 members of my class.
With that I formed a reunion committee strictly made up of volunteers from our class.

It's been busy at times, but not too stressful yet.
I'm pretty sure we have a location decided upon - but I haven't booked the date yet.
I think we've ironed out what we want to do for our reunion as well.
I'm confident that I've found a photographer for the event.
I'm also confident that this will become more stressful as it gets closer.
I'm very glad I have committee members located in Littleton, Colorado where I grew up/graduated to take care of the details I need to be handled in person. It's a disadvantage to live out of state and plan these things.

The next big step for the planning process is getting a class website up and running.
I recently received an email from a new contact regarding this next step, so I may have more help moving forward on that than I anticipated I would. Yay!


Another thing I've recently been doing: baking!

I baked and decorated a 5-tiered wedding cake for my neighbor's wedding on the 5th of this month that, from what I've been told, tasted amazing! (I'm really not much of a cake-eating person even though I like to make/decorated them - funny isn't it?!)
I was happy with how the individual layers turned out and looked on their own, but was somewhat disappointed that the bottom two layers kind of got squashed when I assembled the whole thing. It was a VERY HEAVY cake.

Lucky for me, it didn't have to be fully assembled for very long. So I got a friend of mine to get a couple of pictures of it before I took the layers back down and cut most of it up.

Added to the wedding cake this month I also baked and decorated Tori's birthday cake. (I honestly can't believe my baby is a 1 year-old already)
I baked a 3D teddy bear for her.
As I did with Autumn's first birthday, I also made cupcakes for an easier way to eat cake and also to provide a bit longer for the finished cake to remain intact at her party.
I was happy with how it all turned out.

Other things that have been going on this year: Party Planning!

I put together a baby shower for a friend of my cousin. Lucky for me I had help on the invitation side (because I was out of town home in Colorado), as well as the decoration/food providing side.
Another friend of my cousin co-threw the baby shower with me so we split the cost on the materials.
I was primarily in charge of the games - all of which were well enjoyed and a lot of fun to play!

So what am I doing next? Another Baby Shower!!
The couple that I made the wedding cake for are due to have a baby boy born in early February. I like this gal so much!
I asked her if she was planning to have a baby shower because this is going to be her first boy (she has 2 girls). Since the answer was "no" I immediately, and happily, offered to throw her one. She was happy to accept also!


On a more serious note - I should probably put a brief update on my depression.

I'm fairly open with most people I meet about having depression. I don't randomly throw it into conversations or anything, but if we're sharing something a long those lines I am pretty forthright about admitting I have this problem.
About 6 months after Tori was born I had my postpartum depression kick in really hard. I had originally braced myself for the effects of postpartum depression by making my assumptions that I would have to deal with it known to a lot of women in my church. I was completely surprised when it didn't hit when I expected it to, and so I thought I was home free. I thought wrong.
However, because I had also alerted my doctor to my suspicions that I may have it's ugly symptoms before going into labor she was very easy to talk to about it when it came up.

I can't praise my PCP enough about her listening quality! She doesn't pull the "I know better than you do because I'm a MD" persona that I am very un-fond of. She truly treats her patients (or me at least) like they are the experts on their own bodies. She listens to my thoughts/feelings/ideas about how to combat any medical thing I'm going through, and comes to a decision WITH me on how to treat and move forward.

With her help I've not only increased the dosage of the antidepressant that I take, but have added a supplemental medication to my regimen that has truly ironed out my swing from feeling suicidal to being manic/controlling and going head-first into anything like I can take on the world.

I truly feel like myself again. No dramatic low points, and no uncharacteristic high points either. I'm really happy with where I am at inside this head of mine.

So yeah... for now, that's been the highlights of my life.
I hope you enjoyed reading it all (if you did).
Feel free to comment if you'd like!

Until next time...

Wednesday, August 21, 2013

New year resolution re-cap

I went to a doctor's appointment on Monday for a variety of things (mainly depression related - follow up on medications, etc). At the end of the appointment my doctor informed me what my current BMI was. I honestly hadn't even thought about my BMI since writing my initial 2013 resolutions post in February.

I know I've been loosing weight, and I also know that I am a lot happier with how my jeans have been fitting lately. It wasn't until Monday night that I took a long hard look at myself in the mirror to determine how I currently feel about my body image.
Honestly, I'm quite happy with where I'm at, and where I'm still headed. I like my figure currently.

My current BMI is 25.5
Just .6 above the max for a normal weight category.
I currently weigh 168 lbs.
That's down 13 pounds in almost 6 months.
Not a drastic drop, no, but a healthy one.
I'm just 7 pounds shy of my goal for the year. I'm fairly confident that I'll be able to make it.
Here's hoping that I'm at or below 161 lbs by the end of the year.

As far as the other two goals ($1000 into savings and have a regular schedule)?

The monetary one has been completed and surpassed (a little bit at least), but the schedule still isn't there.

My fight with depression this year has been a tough one for me. I've adjusted the medication that I'm on with my doctor twice now, as well as added a medication into my regimen to augment the antidepressant.
I'm actually finally feeling like I'm leveling out.

I spent the last two weeks on vacation with my close friends, and family, and that seemed to lift my mood.
Aside from lifting my mood a bit, I noticed that while on vacation I didn't really stress about the things I normally do when I travel. I didn't fixate on having everything go the way I wanted it to (as often as I usually do), and in general I just went with the flow of things.

Fairly recently I decided to get involved with throwing a baby shower for a friend of my cousins, as well as heading up the committee for my upcoming 10-year high school reunion.

I'm actually looking forward to the future, not dreading it!
I'm not existing in a world of just day-to-day, I'm actually actively taking a part in planning things (something I wholeheartedly avoid when I am depressed).

I went and visited my three guy friends at two different cemeteries while home in Colorado. I spoke out loud to all of them at their different resting places. I had never truly done that before. It provided me some closure I hadn't truly experienced with any of them before. I spoke to them about our friends, and what I was doing in my life currently. I made specific promises to each of them that I will keep. It was a good day.

I can honestly say that right now I am happy.

I don't believe I've been able to use that word to describe myself for over 3 years now.

It's refreshing to be able to say it again.